My Guardian Angel
- Colleen Songs
- Jan 8, 2018
- 2 min read
This little one saved my life.
I consider her my Guardian Angel.
Her arrival was my ruse to leave a toxic and deadly relationship.
Without her agreement to enter the world when she did I don't know where I would be right now.
Taken a few weeks after my escape
(I stayed with them for 7 in total)
she soothed me back to life.
I surrendered to the healing I knew I needed after 9 years with a mentally ill narcissist;
a plight this little angel's Momma knew all too well herself.
She helped me un-layer the trauma one day at a time.
I submerged myself in Baby, re-stitching myself in preparation to return to my Children and help heal their own confused and broken hearts.
We searched daily for a place for my friend and her new baby, and when we found one we scrubbed and painted and planned their new life.
With every bucket of water I meditated to cleanse and purify my body, mind and spirit of what I had just left behind.
With every stroke of the paintbrush I made new my devotion to my Self. My Life. My Children.
Writing about this chapter in my life was a task I hesitated to do for a few years.
It pulled at me.
It intimidated me because there was SO MUCH to it!
Trauma after trauma.
Emotional abuse I didn't even recognize AS abuse!
And professionals weren't there to help me, the spouse and eventual Care-giver!
What if others needed to know how to rid the veil of deception narcissism procures upon it's prey?
If I could swim out of the depths of the jello I found myself in,
you could too!
So I began to write one February day and with every word the reality of it all sank in.
The unbelievability came to light.
And the deep healing began.
You can read about this journey in my Memoir 'INHALE' by Colleen Songs.
You have strength and courage you would never believe possible until you take that initial step away from unhealthy love.
And if you have a friend
who can't see for the blinders they've been wearing,
you can plant a seed and buy the book for them.
Just give the preferred shipping address in the order form and a request for a personalized copy.
Sometimes all it takes is a seed.
And the love of a Guardian Angel.
With Love and Light,
Colleen
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